~*The Kitty's Ramblings*~

how dare anyone besides Master tell me what i should do?? so now i cant talk to my best friend and niece because of something that has to be done?? Fuck this..so i have no right to be upset about this and thats final? No..i have EVERY right to be pissed about some guy telling me through her that i am not allowed to talk to her anymore?? and so i get upset and raise my voice. and what..im not allowed????? I WILL do that when i get upset..im human and i have human frailties like everyone else..one of which is a quick temper. Especially when it happens to ppl that i love. so there i am. pissed and i cant even vent?? i allow others like my neice to vent and im not allowed to?? im not allowed to take some time to calm down and then go talk to her? NO im not i guess. i really hate that. so there you go folks. I am not allowed to be human.

OK i REALLY need to get this out. Its been in my head too long and its been renting space. I really dont care if Lonestarraiser and histeria find out about this...here it is the truth of what REALLY happened...

I recall a time when lone and teria asked me to help with Teria's training. what was funny is that she was asking for help..cause she knew i was in a real time relationship with a wonderful Master. What i thought was funny is that Lone decided to accept my help...and you know what? she got better, although when the chips came down, teria was nothing more then a spoiled brat that had no clue...she put her status as a wife before anything and let jealousy get in the way..and they want a poly relationship? HAH! she couldn't even handle her jealousy with jess as being sl collared to lone. it was funny. Then to top it all, she was and most likely is trying to top from the bottom with her "master" to get what she wanted and wants. I watched their D/s relationship fall apart and become a play thing and nothing else...Teria spent ALL her time on SL spending money like water and forgetting what a real life was. all she did was stay on second life...24/7...and dishonored her "master" time and time again with her actions with others. Not even a second thought to even ask for permission to buy things on second life. Oh wait. Lone had no clue how to be a master cause he asked MY Master to help him learn how to control a slave/submissive. that was funny...Master just shook His head after that was done and said...thats no way to have a slave...Teria was being treated as a SLAVE not a submissive...and he told me that she was a submissive..i thought that was strange..

When i rented the house for all, they did nothing to help...and teria lied through her teeth about the amount of money she put into the game after she got a job. Wed help her out all the time with lindens and gifts, spending my limited amounts of money. they didnt even thank me for the assistance with the house that i rented...and tryed to walk all over me. it was the last straw when they tried to get me kicked out of the house that i was renting by bitching to the sl landlord. they stabbed me in the back countless times trying to get me to leave "their" home...funny...well it looks like THEY are gone and banned from the house and its the two ppl that supported them through anything..and what did we get? Bitching moaning and complaining. OOOOOH wait...thats all they know how to do.

i have no idea what to write...so ill just say that everything is ok and i am well...so.....there....

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Why is it that damn telemarketers have to call at horrible timing?? Gods! I was so comfortable, laying in bed, slowly waking up when the damn phone started ringing! I think after like 3 times i got a bit irritable. When Master called i even snapped at Him, since there is no caller id in this house. I felt instantly guilty and apologized over and over LOL!  Thats what happens when the phone rings over and over. GR.

Today is movie day. We are going to see Ghost Rider..i cant wait! I used to collect the comics and everything! This is going to be so cool! Ok well, thats all for now. I will update later as the day progresses. bye!

You have been Invited to a BDSM slumber party. The rules are as follows. You are allowed to bring with you 5 items to play with and or share with the party. You may not copy anyone else's answers, but you may alter them to make them different,and when you are finished you MUST tag 5 new people to come to the party. You MAY be tagged more than once, so be creative in answers.

Thank you and a wickedly wonderful day.

So I bring with me...

1. a Tens unit to have electricity fun
2. OK OK another electricity fun: a violet wand
3. assorted collection of needles to decorate each other
4. pony play sets for all
5 a collection of metal tiped floggers

Im tagging:
deidreschmeidre
karirenee
kendell
divineslave
deepdarkfantasy


Thank you, have Fun!!

One last thing, If you have been tagged, repost in a new entry along with your list and your tags!!

Thank you..

I finally went to the place that will do my therapy today. I am to look forward to another assessment and stuff bright and early at 9:30am in March. The lady, (who was very nice in fact) noticed that i was nervous, and a whole ton of personal and painful information flowed out of me like a sieve. Its not like i wanted to chat frankly, but part of me did, so i'm glad that i was nervous. If i wasn't, i wouldn't of been so honest about how i feel. Although my moods were, and are bad today. its like i cant get myself out this funk that i seem to be sinking into. sigh..all i want is to feel normal. although right now, i'm a bit depressed, for some reason, and all i want to do is cry. But thats another journal entry. I'm not ready to talk about that right now. Yes i'm scared. very scared. but i think that should pass..in a few years..or something.

You think that Master will let me slide with the posting today? I really did my post for the day..maybe He will let me...No i don't think so..so here i go. Don't you just love morons that go on and on and on about something that has been dead for a while now? isn't that called insanity? doing things over and over expecting different results? I think so. Its just words on a screen but it still hurts. Trust me. I've been through that before. Why cant people just stop beating a dead horse? it makes them look like the morons..maybe they just cant see that. I don't know...

tagging:
jaimeskiten
sub_missa
lord_dragon1
master_santar

60 Odd/RANDOM Questions

Be truthful!

1.) Do you talk in your sleep?
yup..sometimes..although im told i mumble

2.) Red Jello or Blue Jello?
cant i have both??

3.) Whats the song thats getting on your nerves right now?
xmas music...grrrrrr

4.) Current Crush?
um....Vin Desil

5.) What's your favorite color?
red, black, purple...ok so i got three

6.) Window seat or aisle seat?
Window

7.) Ever met anyone famous?
Yeah, a few...it happens when you live in New Orleans for a LONG time.

8.) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life?
dont really know..i have accomplished much, but some ppl wouldnt call it successful.

9.) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl

10.) Dr. Phil or Oprah Winfrey?
neither...um..ick!

11) Basketball or Football?
football to a point

12.) How long do your showers last?
depends, Mostly for 10 or so minutes

13.) Do you know how to drive a stick?
Yeah..one type of stick...*giggles*

14.) Do you want any piercings?
7 so far

15.) Are you self-conscious?
not anymore..*giggles*

16.) Have you ever given money to a bum?
Yes, but I prefer to give them food or blankets

17.) Can you jog a mile without stopping?
LOL, No! But I can walk it really fast

18). Where do you wish you were?
home..which i am..finally...

19. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
Yup, stupid car accidents

20. Can you tango?
I can try

21.) Last gift you received?
a really cute bookmark from a dear dear sweet loving niece

22.) Last sport you played?
um tenis..in high school

22.) First sport you played?
Dodge Ball

23.) Things you spend a lot of money on?
my neice

24.) Last gift you gave?
my neice's presents..

25. Do you have a bank account?
Yea

26) Favorite FAST food restaurant?
Jack in the Box! Although there isnt one here in SC!!!!

27) Most hated food(s)?
liver...*shudders*

28) Can you sing?
Yea, mostly in the car and shower!

29) Last person you called?
Hayley

30) What's your least fav. chore?
laundry

31. Favorite Drink?
Mountain Dew baby!!!

32) Are you a vegetarian?
meat.....yummmmmmm

33) Do you believe in Heaven?
Yes!

34) Do you miss someone?
Yes, I miss ALOT of people!

35) Have you ever come close to dying?
Yes

36. Are you drinking?
no...i want mountain dewwwwwwwwwww!!

37) Are you eating?
Not yet

38) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
Yes

39) Do you wear makeup?
Yes

40) Whats your worst fear?
Being alone

41) Would you ever have plastic surgery?
YES!

42) What do you wear to bed?
nuttin

43) Have you ever done anything illegal?
Yes..although i claim the 5th

44) What kind of sneakers do you wear usually?
lots....:)

45. Is anyone in the room with you right now?
yep

46) Future child's name?
cant have kids....so no names here

47.) Current annoyance?
BILLS

48. Do you watch pokemon or dragonball z?
nope

49) Do you snore?
When I am REALLY tired

50) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Amsterdam

51) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
yep

52) If you won the lottery what would you do first?
Scream my freaking head off!

53) Gold or silver?
depends

54) Hamburger or hot dog?
Hamburger, Hot Dogs are nasty!

55) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
humis...gotta love mashed garbanzo beans..:))

56) City, beach, country?
Beach

58) Where did you eat last?
Nieces cooked shrimp

59) When was the last time you cried?
Day before Christmas Eve

60) Do you read blogs?
Sometimes

I'd rather be pissed OFF than pissed ON! lol, thx Mo!


If you didn't see this on the Tonight show, I hope you're sitting
down when you read it. This is probably the funniest date story
ever, first date or not!!! We have all had bad dates..but this takes the cake.

Jay Leno went into the audience to find the most embarrassing first date that a woman ever had.

The winner described her worst first date experience. There was
absolutely no question as to why her tale took the prize!
She said it was midwinter... snowing and quite cold...and the guy had taken her skiing in the mountains outside Salt Lake City , Utah . It was a day trip (no overnight). They wer e strangers, after all, and truly had never met before.
The outing was fun but relatively uneventful until they were headed home late that afternoon. They were driving back down the mountain, when she gradually began to realize that she should not have had that extra latte.
They were about an hour away from anywhere with a rest room and in the middle of nowhere!
Her companion suggested she try to hold it, which she did for a
while. Unfortunately, because of the heavy snow and slow going, there came a point where she told him that he had better stop and let her go beside the road, or it would be the front seat of his car. They stopped and she quickly crawled out beside the car, yanked her pants down and started. In
the deep snow she didn't have good footing, so she let her butt rest against the rear fender to steady herself.
Her companion stood on the side of the car watching for traffic and indeed was a real gentleman and refrained from peeking. All she could think about was the relief she felt despite the rather embarrassing nature of the situation. Upon finishing however, she soon became aware of another sensation.
As she bent to pull up her pants, the young lady discovered her
buttocks were firmly glued against the car's fender.

Thoughts of tongues frozen to poles immediately came to mind as she attempted to disengage her flesh from the icy metal. It was quickly apparent that she had a brand new problem due to the extreme cold.
Horrified by her plight and yet aware of the humor of the moment, she answered her date's concerns about "what is taking so long" with a reply that indeed, she was "freezing her butt off and in need of some assistance!" He came around the car as she tried to cover herself with her sweater and then, as she looked imploringly into his eyes, he burst
out laughing. She too, got the gigg les and when they finally managed to compose themselves, they assessed her dilemma.
Obviously, as hysterical as the situation was, they also were faced with a real problem. Both agreed it would take something hot to free her chilly cheeks from the grip of the icy metal!
Thinking about what had gotten her into the predicament in the first place, both quickly realized that there was only one way to get her free. So, as she looked the other way, her first-time date proceeded to unzip his pants and pee her butt off the fender. As the audience screamed in laughter, she took the Tonight Show prize hands down... or perhaps that should be "pants down." And you thought your first date was embarrassing.

Jay Leno's comment.."This gives a whole new meaning to being pissed off."

A man is driving down a deserted stretch of highway when he notices a sign out of the corner of his eye....It reads:



SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS

HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION
10 MILES



He thinks this is a figment of his imagination and drives on without second thought....Soon he sees another sign which reads:



SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION
5 MILES



Suddenly he begins to realize that these signs are for real and drives past a third sign saying:



SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
HOUSE OF PROSTITUTION
NEXT RIGHT



His curiosity gets the best of him and he pulls into the drive. On the far side of the parking lot is a stone building with a small sign next to the door reading:



SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS



He climbs the steps and rings the bell. The door is answered by a nun in a long black habit who asks, "What may we do for you my son?" He answers, "I saw your signs along the highway and was interested in possibly doing business...."



"Very well my son. Please follow me." He is led through many winding passages and is soon quite disoriented. The nun stops at a closed door and tells the man, "Please knock on this door."



He does so and another nun in a long habit, holding a tin cup answers the door... This nun instructs, "Please place $100 in the cup then go through the large wooden door at the end of the hallway." He puts $100 in the cup, eagerly trots down the hall and slips through the door pulling it shut behind him. The door locks, and he finds himself back in the parking lot facing another sign:



GO IN PEACE. YOU HAVE JUST BEEN SCREWED BY THE SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS. SERVES YOU RIGHT, YOU SINNER.

its yule, and im sitting in front of my sister's comp typing in my journal..LOL thats normal i suppose. hehe..its been ok i guess. everyone unwrapped presents and oohed and ahhed on their stuff, smiled for pics and got hyper on sugar. All and all a normal yule day..*giggles* We are cooking now..well my sister is cooking...i got ordered out of the kitchen. i sware i want to help..oh well. so there you go..yule paraphrased. Although i had the best thing happen..i got to talk to my nephew Jack today. Hes only 2 and is sooo cute! i bet he looks exactly like my brother..I told him that he sounded cute and he agreeed..just like everyone in my family..*giggles* that was the high point of my day. presents and other things doesnt matter..its more important (well for me anyway) that my nephew is having a blast with grandma and grandpa on christmas..OK back to yule stuff...i dont need to get even more hyper...LOL bye for now all!

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thankies kajira_crymzon for the new layout!! its purty! she is a sweetie!

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1. Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
ew hell no

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
spoooonssssssssssss fun...stabby stabby kill kill...

3. What did you do when you were in school in the 2nd grade?
i have no idea..cant remember that far...i know i finished 2nd grade

4. What’s the best thing about your job?
i dont work

5. Do you like more than one person right now?
yes as friends

6. Are you against same sex marriage?
no..why would i? ppl deserve to be happy...:)

7. Did you vote for Bush?
no..ewwwww

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
whats vacation?

9. Have you kissed any of your myspace friends?
two that i know of

10. Are most of your friends guys or girls?
both

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
eww no..they fall apart

12. Last book you read?
The Training Estate

13. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Storm's power

14. Where have you lived most of your life?
Los Angeles, and New Orleans.

15. What was the topic of the last conversation you had?
getting directions and chatting with a moron

16. Where do you see yourself in four years?
with the Master that i adore

17. What’s your favorite smell?
cookies!!!

18. What is your favorite sound?
silence

19. Are you moody?
very

20. Favorite movie of all time?
the outsiders

22. Have you ever gone to therapy?
not gonna answer that one

23. Have you ever played spin the bottle?
Yes

24. Have you ever toilet papered someone’s house?
Yes

25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
Yes

26. Have you ever gone camping?
Yes

27. Have you ever had a crush on your sister’s friend?
i dont have a sister

28. Have you ever gone to a nude beach?
yes

29. Have you ever gone streaking?
No..not that i can remember....

30. Have you ever had a stalker?
yes..*shudders*

31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
yes

32. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
yes

33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only 1?
yes, thats when i leave

34. Have you ever been in love?
I am now...

34. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend?
no..not yet...*crosses fingers*

35. Have you ever lied to your parents?
Yes..hasnt everybody?

37. Have you ever been out of the country?
Yes..to visit family in Japan

38. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
Yes

39. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?
yes, but its easier to shave it off and start all over again

40. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?
Yes...when i was runnin around

41. Last song you listened to?
Lucid by God Module

42. Have you ever spied on someone?
Yes

43. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers?
yes....

44. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
yes....

45. Who was the last person who called you?
Steven

46. When was the last time you slept for more then 12 hours?
dont know....maybe when i was a teenager

47. Have you ever been arrested?
do i have to answer that one? hehe

48. Most embarassing CD you own?
um....i dont have many...lets see RENT! although i love it..

49. Have you ever stolen anything?
hasnt everybody?

50. Have you ever drank egg nog?
yes....nummmyyyyyyy

51. When was the last time you drank alcohol?
6 months ago

52. Are you watching TV, if so, what?
how can i be watching the tv sitting in front of my computer? does videos count?

53. Have you ever smoked?
smoke now..

54. Have you ever done drugs?
i am pleading the 5th here LOL

55. Have you ever drank alcohol?
Yes...*shudders*

56. Do you have any idea about what you want to be?
um...does a willing slave to Master count?

57. Do you have pets?
a kitty! although she is the spawn of satan, but thats ok..:))

58. Would you ever have a one night stand?
um...i have...a few times..*tries to look innocent

59. Sunshine or Thunder Storms?
thunderstorms are so pretty until they knock out your power and cause fires..:))

60. Do you drive?
no

61. Do you drive drunk?
No..i dont drink

62. What is the greatest sport in the world?
whats a sport? LOL

63. Freaking or slow dancing.
kinda both...

64. Hottub or waterslide?
hmmmmmmm hottubs.....

65. Do you like wine?
ewww hangovers of wine sucks!!

66. What size bed do you have?
King

67. Do you have a phone?
yes..two..cell and home...cell is used mostly

68. Do you see yourself having children ever?
Dont want to discuss that

69. What's your favorite school subject?
History

its been on of those days....Christmas, or in this case yule is just around the corner, and damned to all that i am a depressed kitty...sigh..i hate this time of year..it starts reminding me of the things that i lost..like children, and family..when can i ever just truly enjoy these days without trying to hide in my room and not deal with everyone?? Just one day!! thats all i ask...sigh...im just hoping that this mood will pass, but its been a rough few years. i really don't want to go into detail, but..GODS!! Will it ever end????? Sometimes my life has taken me in weird places, and i just want to rest!!!!